感觉~

最近心情突然又变得闷闷的..都不懂自己想怎样好~没有读书的日子变得好懒惰而且好空闲~每天睡觉做工睡觉做工~这几个星期在病房内看到各种各样的婆婆公公~有时会觉得我真的要很感恩我家人都健健康康在家里~也应该要好好珍惜现的生活..突然很感触~总觉得人无时无刻都在接近死亡~有时真的觉得我们这个职业蛮不错的，可以帮到人家也可以帮到自己..所以我一定要努力挨下去..
至于另一方呢~我想到我又会有这种感觉~唉~又是突然的变个怪怪的~
好像没了一回事似的..我真的那么好欺负吗？好欺负到你可以假假吧这件事带过..其实有时候我做工回来我想跟你分享好多事情~可是你好像都会很忙酱..所以只好吐了这口气睡觉~那一晚听到你说要见我真的很开心.. 结果~虽然这是你没预料到的可是你怎么没告诉我一声的？
有好多事情我都不计较了怎么你还是这样~不是我要扮伟大只是我觉得其他女生要的一定比我多..或许当你遇到另一个女生你就变了，那我就没话说了..

冷冷清清

不要等到我不在乎了，你才发现我的存在，好吗？？
再累我也会撑下去..不会把你放弃..多希望你也是如此..

中秋节..

昨天他来槟城看他哥哥所以我们又有机会见面啦..我们一起去吃东西..当他送我回宿舍时突然好舍不得他哦..过几天他就要回KL了..又不懂要多久才能再见到他..这几天的我们都好幸福..真希望幸福的日子一直这样下去..可是我知道啦..回去kl，所有事情都会变了..所以从现在起要慢慢控制自己不再那么想他吧..
今天呢..在医院忙了一整天..唉..很不幸的又有病人去世了..今天是中秋节..他们应该开开心心的在家庆祝中秋可是他们不能..这次这位病人不同..上午我看到他时，其实他已经不能正常呼吸了..他们说其实他只是在等那最后一秒而已..他不能料的..但真的没想到今天就真的走了..上午我才跟他讲话可是过后就看着他被急救然后我吃完晚餐回来..他已经走了..阿公..您好好的走吧..我们帮他清洗得干干净净..再把他送回家去..在那一刻突然之间好想好想我的家人..忍住眼泪的希望啊公开开心心的上天堂..我们能做的只有这些..阿公！加油..!很不想再看到这样的画面..祝福他们都能健健康康的走出医院大门..不再回来了..

幸福的一天

难得的他的答应了陪我这一天..谢谢你..
虽然说最后也是有你的朋友可是我也觉得很开心了..至少我们有我们单独的时间..然后再加你朋友进来其实也不错的..只可惜没有拍很多照片咯..其实现在想想..我应该合照的..因为你有set头发才会喜欢让我拍嘛..哎呀!错过了..希望还有下次的set 头发吧..^^
只能说你还是我心中的帅哥.. xD

bye bye..........................

errrr..today should be a happy monday..but unfortunately..it doesn't a nice day for me...just get to used here but one of my best best best friend from here is going to leave this college..haiz..we r the gang..wihthout her...it wil become very sienz laaaa...anyway..just cried loudly and laughed 9696 wif her before she leave..but..really..it is sad!!
other than that..haiz..actually i am just pretending a laughing face..u dono..it seems like nothing to u..but for me..it is hurt.."seen 13.15","seen 13.29"..i still can rmb it..haiz..really dono how can u just left it like that..HURT!! i can understand u r worry about ur exam but i am also just asking about ur exam..and i try to gv u support..but it seems like no need!!it doesn't matter whether i support him or not!
well...relax man!!just study bah..never ever expect him will be nice anymore..

难关..

老实说..我真的再也不晓得该怎么处理这样的事..每一次事情的发生我都会告诉自己忍下来吧..可是你知道吗..当某件事情不断的重复..你就不懂要如何在一次一次的面对它..感觉就像..这次终于结束了但不知何时..它有会回来找你..
有时真的会累..我真的没有要求很多..为什么还是这样..我是女生..你懂吗..

"never let a girl sleep mad or sad" :(

现在的我只能不停的用读书来忘记这件事........希望最后可以安然的度过..

OUR 1ST TIME :)

hiak hiak hiak!!1st day of wearing the new uniform..1st day of exam...1st day wearing the sport shirt..1st day of go to the hospital ward visit and gain some information  u r really a nurse when u wearing the uniform..haha..hmm..tomorrow we will start to communicate wif the patient..a little bit scare scare lo..dono will get scold or not.. 

hope that i can remember all the procedure n do it well la..

but...one of my best best best friend will stop studying here after few days..haiz..damn sad!mayb that is good for her to stop this course lo..just bless her la..

hahahah..we r shiny!!!wow!!hahahah..

today is also our sport day..1st day wearing the XXXL sport shirt!damn big!!when i wearing it just look like wearing the sleeping suit.-.-

wahahahha..actually we r traffic light.. hahaha..

glad to be wif u two.. (feeling loved)

worry

feeling bad......................

内伤~

原来...都没有我想象中的简单..不是你单方面向要维持好这段感情就能维持得好..太天真了..
自以为你累了，以为你只想在这段感情中休息下而我就该让你休息，自己多努力点就可以了可是并不是这样..
或许是我的问题..我太粘人了吗？
有时我真的会觉得我真的没有过分要求你做什么..我只想有个安全感..就算只是普通的一句或是微笑的符号，我都会觉得很开心了..其实你现在这样是没问题的..只要你好好的跟我说句晚安+++++ 就已经够了..当然我不是很想那样可是如果你真的还不能改变你现在对我的态度..那没关系..我可以勉强接受只有一封很甜蜜的晚安..
其实有时真的会很心痛..当你看到一些比较敷衍的信息..真的会痛..
一直以来我也真的没要求过要你陪我去某个地方或是陪我看电影..不是我不想..只是我不敢..
双鱼座是个很会幻想的一个星座..当然她也会希望她的另一半会抽点时间陪她看电影，聊聊天..可是她遇到的却是个摩羯座大男人..鱼鱼想的事情都不可能发生..但我没觉得不好..我还是很爱他 ..就是爱他的大男人..
有时候会向roommate诉苦..但转过头来又很开心的跟她大吵大闹..可惜现在..这种状态维持了快两个星期...唉..其实我真的很想见你..可是看来你并没有想见我的念头..多余的时间也都是陪朋友..正确来说我这个女人..有没有存在其实没差..已经好久没有这种感觉..我以为这种感觉不会zai出现可是...最终它还是出现了..

college's life~

July~the 1st month i stepped into Lam Wah EE College and it's hostel..

hmmm..the 1st day..so worry that i can't understand wat r they talking about and i scare of the presentation..and my english..worst!!how can i do to import it and speak well?
the 1st impression of my roommate..haha..not so friendly..but the reality..she is very very 38 lang lai..so happy to have this kind of roommate..now...she seems to be my best friend..i will told her all my thing.. hmmm..including secret..xD we just know each other for 1 month but we look like bbf..really can't believe that we can share our things together..sometimes she really make me happy..glad to know u.. really...

august is coming..and exam is coming too..haizz... stress..all bio things..i hate bio but i have to study bio..omg!!!yyyy??stupid!!just hope that i can answer all the question..please..i know i can!!right?think positive and try the best..
actually this week..my mood..not really good..i dono y he will suddenly change..haiz.. everday im waiting his message but my phone haven't ring.. sad!!even goodnight also cincai..i dono y before this still very sweet then suddenly..really suddenly..totally change!!and until now..it's still happened..
i wish to meet him this  week but i think he doesn't feel like wan to meet me..haiz..sad!one week holiday also dunwan meet me.. friend is the most important actually..well!!i believe i still can bear it!gambateh!!!

GENTING!!!I'M COMING AGAIN..!!^^

Come back from Ns for one week then now i'm ready to go genting again for part time! wahaha..yahoo!!money money come!!1st time go there for part time..seriously...so nervous..haha..but happy can earn money..hehe..i keep wondering which casino wan me..hahaha..actually i hope to grdo back my SW..most of them i already kenal mah.if i go main,all of them i dono de wor..scary..dono how to face it..so....just pray it..hope that i will enjoy this working moment.!!again!!i will always meet with ah sim!^^ miss her so much actually.. and my salary!!!wahahahah!!i wan many many many har MR.GENTING!!excited!! 

我自由了..!!♪( ´▽｀)

从当兵回来的日子还真不习惯..感觉现在的我好无聊..也好想念他们哦！还记得当初收到那封信时我是多么的想死..真的好不想去..可是现在却好舍不得.. უ('╥﹏╥')უ
第一天去营真的不能活啊！没电话的日子..又只是几只华人罢了..怎么过啊？还好第二第三天来了一些华人..但是其实还是很少华人咯..!!当时我一直要想办法让自己出事，那我就可以回家了..晚上有时候还会偷偷哭呢..真的很想很想回家咯！
第一个星期又很无聊wor..真的很难挨啊！老实说..刚开始我还没认识其他华人时我是没顾形象的咯。哈哈..过后慢慢的认识了他们..慢慢的慢慢的到现在却变成很好很好的朋友.不只是女生哦。我们在那边男女都爱参在一起的..有他们的日子开心多了，也没有那么难熬了..
在营里唯一不是很喜欢的就是要上课咯..真的很闷很闷啊！每天上课都想睡觉的..哈哈..zzz..
当然也有很多好玩的活动啦。可惜不可以随身带照相机，不然照片可多了呢..
我Bravo组的姐妹们对我真的很好。好爱好爱他们..有什么事情他们都会在我身边保护我..好感动.真的很庆幸有他们.还记得那一晚闹鬼，我好怕好怕..他们却把我照顾得像小bb那样..在那时候我真的好感动...在营里我算是个蛮开朗又吵死人的ah moi..在dorm(房间）里面我都爱跟那些马来朋友大吵大闹。刚开始的他们看起来不好相处，但久而久之我们认识了就一起吵了起来..所以呢，他们对我的印象应该满深刻的。哈哈哈..而且我又被他们选为ketua dobi，每天都得叫他们收衣服所以他们一定会记得我.. :)
再来呢，我在营里既然被印度人看上耶！我的天啊！他很恐怖啊！每天在我对面眼睛大大的望着我..一看就看很久很久那种.恐怖恐怖!!还送了我四封情信呢。(°_°)

full loreng!!当然是在操步时要穿得咯..

pt 衣..任何时候都会穿到滴.. :)

在那边超爱穿马来装的..哈哈..

上课时穿得拉..^^

family day!! :D
 真的好怀念跟他们一起的日子..我想你们了傻婆们!!!!!!♪───Ｏ（≧∇≦）Ｏ────♪

working life ... :)

haaaaalloooo...long long long long time din sayang my laptop already..pity him.. :(
ohyeah!!!i'm back again!wahahahhahahhaa!super happy!!!! :DD
miss miss miss here...
okayy...let's start my topic..^_^
hmmmm...the 1st month i stayed in genting...got a bit bit boring n feel like the world end!hahahaha..
bcoz i always always made mistaken..haizz..
but now.. it was so nic3.. if i din make any mistake la.. xixi .. and luckily i have 3 siao po roommate n siao po neighbor.. happy.. and also noe many many new fren already.. ^^friendship 4ever!!
AND TODAY!!!i met some cut customer who made me laugh until cry.. hahahah..cute....old man n woman.. friendly.. n funny ..!!^^
if everyday i met those customer then my working day will be very very nice ..wahahahha...hope hope hope so ...
those good n friendly ah gong ah ma .. i wish u all win many many ya .. woohooo!!!hahahahah...
AND TAN WEI YONG!!please be a good girl ya,don't always panic and don't so easy to get bad mood,kay? :)
GOOD LUCK u TAN WEI YONG!!!